I just felt a shift. A small twinge in the air that something has changed. The clock is at 11:11 and I take this as a sign that I’m on the right path. I’m creating a new world for myself outside of what I’ve been told. If you’re anything like me, maybe you’re in the process doing the same. You might have started to realize at some point that something about your life didn’t quite seem to fit. It was tight and uncomfortable and you had this intense urge to make a change, but you didn’t really know where to start. Then, little by little, you make some small changes, decisions that you make just for yourself. You’re building a life that’s just for you, the one you’ve always dreamed about.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been a little off the beaten path - at least from what was expected of me in my family. I was a quiet and shy child, but inside, I was bursting with imagination and creativity. Talking to stuffed animals for hours on end, thinking about worlds I wished I lived in, and drawing my feelings instead of talking about them. I dreamed of being an actress, a writer, an artist, a designer and everything in between. Yet, I was in a family full realists, people who didn’t really believe in stepping outside of the box. The black sheep of the family. That’s what they said and that’s what I felt like.
I don’t remember when, but I guess at some point I tried to conform, I tried to craft my desires into something that would be acceptable. My childhood dreams and fantasies lived in a shoebox in my closet from this point on. The problem was, I wasn’t so good at fitting into someone else’s world. I just kept finding myself pushing against life, self-sabotaging and making poor decisions that led me through some of the most challenging times in my life.
Only recently have I begun to see my life as fully my own to mold. Now, life feels like a precious story that only I can write. The voices, judgements, pressures of others cannot touch me in my little corner of the room where I write all my plans and visions for the life I long for. Now that I’ve begun to emerge from the clutches of someone else’s dream, there’s no way for me to turn around. There’s only moving forward into a terrifyingly beautiful world that I get to create.
Have you felt this too? The calling from your soul that there’s something waiting beyond what you thought possible? It’s so quiet at first, it’s hard to hear - especially when we’ve gotten into the habit of not listening to it at all. But, when you start listening more and more, what treasures lie there. What I mean is, when we listen to what makes our souls sing, we open ourselves up to a new reality filled with magic. Yes, magic! Because it’s a magical experience when you start listening to yourself and following the things that bring you true joy!
Maybe it’s because my favorite season is upon us or maybe I’m extra inspired by the books I’ve been reading, but there’s something in the air that’s making me dream a new dream. I feel inspired and motivated towards a future that is all mine. I know I won’t always feel like this. I know some days I’ll wake up and feel like crawling right back into bed. Some days I’ll be lucky if I’m able to make my tea and change out of my pjs. But, in this moment, things feel fresh and alive and anything feels possible!
Leaving you with this image because it’s sweet and I think this is where my mind lives right now.
<3 Sarah
"Maybe it’s because my favorite season is upon us or maybe I’m extra inspired by the books I’ve been reading, but there’s something in the air that’s making me dream a new dream." <3
You go, girl!